You know it’s pretty crazy how things work out huh? Thanksgiving break, for all my life has just been a break from school, get stuffed on TurkYay day and chilling with friends. But I guess this year it’s been like a break from my new life here at Davis. A chance to catch up with old friends and just… for lack of a better phrase, be happy again. Not that I’m not happy here at Davis but fck just all these changes and missing my friends back at home and shit. They really mean a lot to me. So seeing them all again and everything just felt good. Like. Real good. Inspirational dance talks. Walks down memory lane. And eating. Oh the food. Haha.

It’s so cool though, all the new experiences and memories I’m making here. The people I met and the chance to do some stuff I don’t think I’d do back at home. Like the books. I find time to read a lot here. And write. Sometimes I worry or get scared what I’m going to do with my English major, but then I read these books and I remember why I wanted to be an English major. I’ve read some books and seen some movies here that I wouldn’t have had the chance to like The Uglies series by Scott Westerfeld which is reminiscent of The Hunger Games in some ways or Luna, or I Am the Cheese. Or movies like The City of Gold and The Sting.

Even when I get down because of my stupid paranoia with friendships and crap, everything just seems to work out. For the first time in the past month or so, I feel really happy again. I was always looking for constant reassurance and yeah, sometimes my friends could’ve been a little bit better with keeping in touch, but I just needed to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. Take a look in my heart to see that trust that we built.

Whether it’s my old friends, or my new acquaintances, I find them pushing me to grow all the time and become better. A better dancer. A better scholar. A better person. 

Well here comes the omega of the alpha. The end of the beginning. Two more weeks and that marks the end of my first quarter here at Davis. I look forward to what the future brings for me. But for now, I feel nothing more than just… haps.